Welll its 2nd semester. I went over my old journals, and my friends did ditch me every day at lunch. Yeah 'friends'. Whateva I made new and better friends. THey are so much funner(not a word) anyways!!! The end of the year is approaching faster and faster, but I think I kinda have learned to live in the moment this year. Its not all about freaking out so much about things that aren't goingto happen for awhile, its about making it through today to see tommorow. I had a real dark period of my life, where I wasn't me. I had my heart torn out by my best guy friend. Hes like my brother, but I still fell for him , andhe still crushed my heart. But i guess Im over that. Now I have this other guy. Like the first week of school he treated me like I was his everything. We were always together at lunch and brunch, which was fine by me cause I have been nursing a massive crush on him, but since then hes changed a lot. I miss the old him, but I guess that we all need to make changes in our lives, and if this was necessary for him, well than Im happy for him. I think that first week he really did like me, but then something happened, i don't know what, but something did, and it changed a lot of things in his life. And I guess that the possibility of an 'us' just wasn't possible after that. Hes one of those people that no matter how your relationship with them ends up you are always going to remeber them. Just because they were so sweet and funny and nice. I was thinking about it the other day, theres only 2 people in the entire world, that when I see them, I automatically smile. One is Kenny who I was just talking about, and the other is Nic that 'brother' of mine. I don't know why, but when I'm with those two it doesn't matter how i feel it just matters that Im with them in the moment and smiling.
The new friends I got since the beggining of the school year are great. I love hanging out with them. Ili can especially make it all worth it. Shes always there to make sure Ifeel all right, and sometimes I do, but sometimes I don't. Candace is there for silent sly kind of comic relief. She doesn't talk much, but you better watch out when she does talk its preety much always hilarious. Dan.....is different. Sometime he bugs the crap out of me the way he talks about mormons and stuff, but sometimes, when Im having a real downer of a day, he can change it. Frankie! I love frankie shes always there to give hugs, and I don't think I could ever make Frankie sad or mad. She is the most pure one out of all of us, the most childlike in the best sense. I love her! Chunk is another one of our comic reliefs, he always got a joke, well usually. These past couple of days he has seemed real down, don't know what it is, but I wish him the best. Lauren reminds me kinda of myself, just sitting back watching it all unfold in front of us. Laughing at their jokes, but still remaining in our own little worlds. Laura is always there to back me up on the mormon issues, and to make sure I don't get in to much trouble. Sara? Oh man sara is there for everyone to HATE its hilarious! You ask someone her name, and they don't know they just say the annoying girl.
Well its almost time for me to go to school and see all these fun characeters, so I gotta go!

Out like Rainbow Trout!